February 8, 2014

Saturday Inspiration

Posted in Saturday Inspiration at 8:00 am by hollysbears

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What inspires you today?

February 2, 2014

Gratitude Sunday

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:51 pm by hollysbears

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Joining Taryn at Wooly Moss Roots for Gratitude Sunday. This week I am especially grateful for:

* Good weather this weekend! After being 7 degrees earlier in the week, it has been lovely to be able to open some windows and get some fresh air in the house.

* An improptu trip to the zoo yesterday. Little girl absolutely loved the trip and seeing her face light up when she saw all the stingrays in the Amazonia exhibit melted my heart.

* Getting a good note from little girl’s music teacher on Friday afternoon.

* Getting a small hug and kiss when I stopped by daycare this week to drop off a treat for snacktime.

* Seeing hubby finish up a knit blanket he has been working on for a year now. Yes, my hubby knits.

* Receiving a beautiful hot and scarf set in the mail from the Wyoming Rose Etsy shop. It’s pretty and sparkly.

* Little girl trying some new food! She’s been in a picky phase since she turned two, but on a rare occassion she will actually try something. :)

* A lovely salmon dinner on Shabbat. Little girl ate all the salmon we gave her!

* Snacking on banana muffins in the car after a long day at the zoo. Yum.

* Watching the groundhog all together this morning, snuggled under a quilt, then waffles afterward. Six more weeks of winter….

January 29, 2014

Wednesday

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 5:09 pm by hollysbears

Middle of the week and I am so thankful for heat. We’re hovering at 20° here today which is at least warmer than the last few days. Monday night felt the coldest to me because it had been warm Monday morning, then the temperature plummeted to a balmy 7° and we’re only in January! I knew going into this winter, it would be a hard one, but I am longing for spring. I’ve been cheering myself up with pictures of flowers and reading “The Secret Garden”. I also have a few seed catalogs coming in the mail so I can start planning the garden this year. I don’t know if I’ll actually have much of a garden, each year I have really big aspirations for a wonderful vegetable garden and don’t do much, but I keep trying. If nothing else, we’ll have our pumpkin patch, I love growing pumpkins.

So with such a cold day, what to do? Why make roasted chicken drumsticks, mashed sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts and mushrooms of course! A wonderful meal for such a cold day and I can enjoy it tomorrow too for lunch. Yum.

Today I am grateful for the following:

* Heat! I’m so glad I work in a comfortable office and can go home to a nice warm house tonight.

* Little girl being so sweet last night and curling up on my lap while we watched Mister Rogers.

* A good night’s sleep and hubby being up first this morning!

* Comments on my post from Sunday, thank you everyone!

January 26, 2014

Gratitude Sunday

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 2:40 pm by hollysbears

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Joing Taryn at Wooly Moss Roots for Gratitude Sunday. After being sick this week, having a snow storm, and then bitter cold, I have much to be thankful for this week, including:

* Work closing on Tuesday! Not only was I getting over a wicked cold/flu, but it was snowing like crazy on Tuesday, it was nice not to have to try and trudge into work.

* All the people who cleared the roads in FFX Cty after the snowstorm so I could get to work safely on Friday.

* The opportunity to plan Earth Day activities for work this year! Anyone have any ideas?

* A long overdue shopping trip. Since we got sick on Saturday and spent most of the week at home, we were running low on everything! Now that we’ve gone shopping, I can make a batch of banana muffins which will be very welcome I’m sure.

* A long overdue trip to Bed, Bath, and Beyond. We’ve been in need of a new cutting board for a long time and a new clothes drying rack since the one we’ve had since ’99 broke. Just having those things in the house makes me smile now.

* Little girl and hubby are feeling better. It’s amazing what a few nights of un-interupted sleep will do for you.

* The latest issue of Mother Earth News coming this week, just in time for me to curl up on the couch with it. :)

* Mail from my mother-in-law! I told her back in September how much little girl loves checking the mail and she’s made sure there’s something for little girl to get every day. Now, if I could only explain to her that there is no mail on Sunday….

January 25, 2014

Saturday inspiration

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:33 am by hollysbears

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Remember your blessings


What inspires you today?

January 24, 2014

Friday gratitude

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 4:28 pm by hollysbears

Ah…finally Friday. This has been quite the week with getting sick on Sunday, then the snowstorm on Tuesday, and now we’re finally at the end of the week. Today, I am grateful for the following:

* A good night’s sleep! Little girl finally slept through the night without coughing, it was wonderful.

* Getting to daycare and work safely today. The ice on the neighborhood roads was pretty scary, I’m just glad we stayed safe.

* Leftover roast chicken and veggies for lunch. Mmmm….nothing like a good roast chicken.

* My first meeting of the Employee Activity Committee at work. I’ve been put in charge of the company’s Earth Day activities. Any ideas?

* My Etsy purchases arrived! I have a lovely necklace and bracelet made by Martha at HiyaHerc. Beautiful rose quartz. :)

January 23, 2014

Getting over the flu

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 3:39 pm by hollysbears

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We’re all getting over the flu here and I can say that I am grateful for a few things today:

* I haven’t had to go outside in the polar vortex redux.
* Little girl’s fever finally broke this morning!!!
* My immune system is holding up well and I was only out of commission for one day.
* Elderberry syrup is AWESOME! Must remember to buy more of that mix to make another batch when this is all over.

January 17, 2014

Dare to….

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 9:59 am by hollysbears

Dare to

Dare to…be grateful for life.

Sorry for the break in posting. It’s been a tough week and a half with some weather related depression, but I’m climbing out and hope to be back to my regular schedule starting this weekend. Thanks for understanding.

January 7, 2014

Morning routine stress

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 4:44 pm by hollysbears

Today has not been a very good day so far, and right now I am struggling to find the little things to be grateful for. Today has been on a downward slope since I woke up this morning and nothing really went right. I had all these grand ideas about getting up, taking a really hot shower, prepping coffee and taking out blueberries for a pancake breakfast we’d all enjoy, and then daycare drop off and work. Well, I did do all the things mentioned, but in between all of it was arguments with hubby and frustration with the little girl. Sigh. All my good intentions for a lovely morning ruined by stress and forgotten tasks. Hubby has an uncanny knack for finding things around the house that I’ve left half-finished and then forgotten about, and for some reason likes to find these things during the morning rush or evenings. Very rarely on weekends. And the little girl is three, she’s just being a normal three year old who is excited about learning how to do things on her own….even when they take ten times as long to accomplish.

I’ve spent the better half of the work day in pity party mode, feeling sorry for myself for getting “in trouble” with hubby and then criticizing myself for yelling at the little girl and being generally unpleasant with everyone I came in contact with. This is not the person I want to be. I don’t even know why I was in such a bad mood this morning, but maybe I can make this evening better? Maybe I can dress up dinner a bit to make it extra special for hubby and I can spend some time painting with the little girl. And still get to bed on time? Oh please!

This all reminds me of the presentation I attended at work yesterday. After we did some Meyers-Briggs personality exercises, we were supposed to write out our stressers and coping mechanisms. After thinking about what my personality test came back with (ISTJ), I wonder if the lack of routine and running around in the morning is what really stresses me. I like to have routines and schedules and plans, and people getting up late or deciding to exert their independence randomly one day makes it difficult for me to cope. I’ve been thinking a lot about my morning routine and how to make it better and I haven’t come up with any good ideas. Right now, it looks like this:

• 5:30: Wake up and stumble into bathroom to dry brush and then shower.
• 6:00: Clean percolator (if I didn’t the night before) and make coffee.
• 6:10: Attempt to wake up hubby. This usually goes on every ten minutes until he gets out of bed.
• 7:00: Wake up little girl and give her some milkies.
• 7:20 or 7:30: Breakfast.
• 8:00: Get little girl ready for daycare (potty time, dressing, brushing teeth, combing hair, clothes on).
• 8:40: Pack up cars and leave.

That would be a good day. Most days it doesn’t go that smooth and I’m left stressing at 8:40 that we’re still looking for a missing mitten or stuffed animal that the little girl “must have” before we leave. Or it’s 9:00 and hubby still needs to do his check of the doors and baseboards before we leave home. I’m sure there’s a better way to make all this work, I just don’t know how. Hubby and I have tried over the years to make it better, but I do feel resentful that I wake up at 5:30 and most days hubby sleeps in until 7 and gets up with the little girl while I’ve been trying to wake him up and prep things. There are breakfast recipes I’d love to try, but I can’t because of the unknown of when hubby and little girl are getting up. Sigh. Anyone out there have some suggestions for me?

In the meantime, these are the things I am grateful today:

• A warm house, car, and office. Despite the freezing temperatures outside, I’ve barely felt it.
• Little girl’s smile this morning when I dropped her off at daycare.
• A good lunch. We had roast chicken on Sunday and today was leftovers day, so good on a cold day.
• This week’s Toastmasters meeting is planned! No scrambling at the end right before the meeting this time.
• My meeting with my boss being cancelled this week so I could spend some time working on letters for work.
• Blueberries in this morning’s pancakes. I am so glad I froze that big bucket of berries in the summer. Next year, I should freeze even more, I don’t know how much longer these will hold out.

January 6, 2014

Brrr…..

Posted in Gratefulness Project at 12:24 pm by hollysbears

Whew, the weather is getting quite cold out there today! Went to bed last night to the sound of a downpour of rain, and woke up to snow flurries. One of my friends always likes to joke about the weather in Virginia being either arctic tundra or hatching baby chicks, and I think this week, we’re about to experience the arctic tundra. I am so thankful to have a nice warm house!

Just got an email from my Dad this morning telling me he now has a contract on his house and hopes to be moved out by the beginning of April. This makes me sad because I don’t get so see him often now, even though he lives less than 15 miles from my house, and soon he’ll be 240 miles away. I’m not sure why he doesn’t visit much, it used to be that we spent a lot of time together, but over the years, the visits have gotten more and more infrequent and I feel bad asking to spend time with him. Even his acknowledgement of my birthday has gotten smaller. It used to be, he’d come over and spend the day with me, then it was a quick visit in the afternoon, then a card with a check, and now just a card. I hope when the little girl grows up, I won’t stop spending time with her. Family is something I have always viewed to be important to me and I try to spend plenty of time with each side, but it seems like my family would prefer I didn’t spend time with them. It makes me very sad.

That and Hubby says he thinks I’ve been pushing people away for the past month which I don’t think I’ve been doing on purpose, but it’s possible. After what happened in November with the surgery, I’ve found it difficult to deal with other people, especially the sympathetic looks you get. Or people saying, “I know how you feel” when it’s obvious that there is no way they can know. Losing a child, even if you only were pregnant for a short time, is devastating and it has been difficult to deal. I told the midwives when they asked, I have good days and bad. Part of the reason for the Gratefulness Project is so I can try and focus on the positive in life and hopefully heal from this pain.

So, what do I feel grateful for today? I’m grateful for a warm house, good food, an opportunity to move from my desk during the work day today, my little girl’s laughter and giggles this morning, and soothing music on my computer to work by. It’s really the little things in life, isn’t it?

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